Fear talk 3; Being Bullied

Since as far back as I can remember I’ve always been known to be a passive person.  I didn’t like confrontation, the arguing, dramas, and the negativity so I always agreed with everyone to make people happy.  In elementary school I was known as the shy quiet girl I always wanted to sit in the back never wanted to get called on.  After a certain grade I would always day dream and space out because I didn’t like school very much.  It’s not that it was hard it just felt like a lot of people were picking on me which was mainly the guys.  I had one best friend in elementary I’m pretty sure his name was Tommy.  He never picked on me and we always hanged out together and got along very well.  Until the school decided to have a new lunch system involving computers which resulted in half the school being transferred to a new school and there goes my best friend.  I think the school was called sunny or Sunnyside? Not too sure but I was pretty sad.

Even though I was bullied by some of the guys the teachers didn’t help much.  There was one teacher that was very hard on me I won’t name names but out of everyone else she picked on me the most finding every way possible to get me in trouble.  Why? I have no idea why.  She was the only teacher I remember who tried her hardest to make that school year a nightmare for me.  Which in turn made me not want to go to school I have to admit my grades dropped and I stopped focusing.  I was like well why bother if the teachers didn’t even care.  I was bullied from elementary school to 7th grade once I moved to a new city closer to my mom’s job I wasn’t bullied at all maybe like once in 8th grade but it was whatever.  Once I went into high school the bulling stopped.  My grades went back up and I was doing well in school until another big event happen in my life which I will talk about that later on.

So what I’m trying to say is bullying doesn’t last forever.  Yeah I was bullied for most of my childhood and it was pretty hard, and it did affect my life.  I didn’t have that many people to turn too, I felt alone most of the time.  But look I’m still here today being bullied can hurt you but it's just words and yes words can hurt, but sometimes you just have to ignore and look past it all.  You can’t rely on people to make you stronger you have to be strong yourself, learn to overcome difficult obstacles in your life to be better.  Things happens for a reason maybe it’s caused by your surroundings, the people around you, or you made that reason happen yourself, but whatever it is it happened for a reason.  It’s something you can learn from and become a stronger better person to have a happy life.